i like having my own space because i can disregard the presence of others. and that's one terrible, terrible thing i often do. i have little consideration of others. lately i've been feeling like my flatmate/friend is really cold and distanced from me. i have to practically make her have dinner with me, in some sort of strange attempt to bond with her. later she told me that she has been feeling like she can't trust me because of something i (unthinkingly) said behind her back. and also the little tactless and inconsiderate things i do around the house -

i feel really sad though sort of relieved to finally know what was bothering her. it's really hard to realize that the person whom you've lived with for the past 2 years has been harboring these feelings for so long. what can i say in my defence? absolutely nothing, except that i'm truly sorry and i can only try to be more thoughtful of my words and actions.