Down, down, down

i've never felt more crushed and demoralized. i know, there will be more of such situations to come in future. but for now, my initial love for my garment has totally vanished because the design teacher says "it doesn't work" each time she looks at it. i understand what she means but it really sucks because i then try to make adjustments in order to "make it work", and the more i try to change it, the worse it becomes and the further i get away from my initial design and concept.

the photoshoot was yesterday and i was still busy handstitching at the last second. have to re-do those parts. the show is in 2 weeks time, and i still have another dress and my concept and design book to complete. i don't fucking know how i'm going to pull this one off. the worst part is that i still have previous homework left undone. this is all major drama and stress that i really haven't learn to cope with. at some point, i have to say, "stop, this is ok."